Time out.
That is time out to discuss wanking not necessarily about recounting the experience for you/me.
So I see a fair bit a wanking on a daily basis yeah? So I’m thinking about the effect this has had on me or something like that, and it has had a profound effect. When in a relationship, actually I should be more specific shouldn’t I, when in relationship with ‘the X X’, this effected the relationship greatly, generally it made me feel less inclined to want to have sex. Be specific, sex with ‘the X X’ that is. This could also be because of the relationship with ‘the X X’ and his generally unspoken stance on my job. Put this together and well it equals a non existent sex drive, rather i was dreaming of having sex. With other people.
And now…
I’m single. And the effects of this are? I wank more than you can comprehend. How I once approach things is now dramatically different. I wouldn’t say that the footage/imagery I am inundated with on a daily basis effects me as such. More subconsciously than anything else. It has helped me to learn a lot about what I do and don’t like and generally I like most things. And its opened me up to many different ways of thinking, broadened if you like the way I see myself sexually and present myself sexually.
Sexually I feel a lot more confident, this comes from an attitude of fuck you, I am going to please me, it also comes from experience. And there are many more experiences to come.
Have also learn’t that its not always even if at all about the orgasm, but usually about the overall experience and mostly the pleasure which comes from being aroused and excited and confident. My masturbation’s are less and less about me releasing and more about me experiencing myself and my own sexuality. I don’t wank, I love myself.
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