Well last week was freak out week. And I do mean I went slightly psycho. Yes I was premenstrual but I’m not usually such a mess. Hormones. Mine have been clearly trying to work themselves out, I am back on the pill, 1st month back on. But anyway. Psycho-ness, yes I had it, it is pretty much gone now. This promted all sorts of strange body things. It exasperated my already anxious self, sent me into fits of dizziness and shaking and numbness. It also made me want to run away from everyone. And not want sex and feel repulsed by sex (WTF body, seriously WTF!!!) On my way back to normality, which is brilliant and well needed. Tonight I chill out.
So yeah, sex, yes, but I didn’t enjoy it like I normally would. Wank, yes, several times on a Sunday afternoon, I wanked and wanked and wanked, needing to release (thanks anxiety your awesome, NOT). Cuddles, yes, but I wanted more. I’ve really needed them.
Hopefully back on track this week, I can’t handle that crazy brain matter.
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