I crave sex at the moment and I crave force.

I crave sex at the moment and I crave force.

Up on blocks. I am seriously walking around turned on. Last night I got myself off, numerous times – why hello libido, you’re back. Over and over again, short breaks between whilst watching Black Books on the sofa. I’m sure the neighbors could hear me, perhaps the TV drowned me out.

I am craving quite rough sex. This would be because of the type of sex I’ve been having. Last night I felt like I seriously just wanted my insides massaged, from the inside out, hard. Rather I went for the clit, too fucking quick. I am squirting nearly every time I wank these days, it gets messy.

So sex lately has been a little on the sub dom side. Me taking sub. Occasional switch. I like this, always have. I naturally submit quite well. It’s playful though, and safe. In time I will trust for more. Nothing I can’t wriggle my way out of for the moment.

I have been wanting to bring up some fantasy stuff, and I may well do that soon. Open conversation, acceptance is key to good sex. Honesty and trust. And seriously the sex just keeps getting better, the conversation just keeps getting better and the time’s spent hanging out in silence are really comforting. There is no checking in every day, just relaxed, respectful and caring. Not too pushy, just quite right.

So there’s the ohh and ahh stuff, my brain is in lust/sex mode. Is that dopamine? I forget. There are stages in this shit. My brain is just filled with boy.