There was a bit of a slow make out, and I went home.
Not that I didn’t want more because part of me did and the bigger part of me said no. I’m trying this thing though, this thing where I actually don’t let myself go so quickly. The thing where I get to know someone and want them to get to know me. I’m well over casual fucking. I want something on a different level. That’s not to say I want total partnership, relationship or any other sort of ship. But I do want respect and I do want to know that I feel safe and that I can trust the person I’m sleeping with because if they can’t keep up with me mentally then I’m sure as hell not going to get what I need and want physically, and they aren’t going to get from me what I want to give.
A casual fuck between strangers ain’t nearly as much fun as with someone you feel totally safe with. Well not for me anyway.
I want trust and I want honesty and I want to play dirty.
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