Mindblown: a blog about philosophy.
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Confidence
Confidence. I lack a lot of confidence. A friend use to tell me that the reason I kept so busy was so that I didn’t have to think about all of the other stuff, so I could avoid. Not quite so, but maybe a little. I tend to keep very busy, but it’s about keeping…
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There. I said it.
Things got less adventurous and more intimate. A lot more intimate. “We’re a pretty hard core couple.” A says. “Yeah. We are.” Things took a bit of a dive, a small lull. But it’s on the up. “What was that last night? That was intense. And I don’t mean the head-job.” He says. “I know…
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A Little Bit
I did not get mine the other night. Actually it went sour. There is a bit of this recently. A has head struggles lately, he is anxious. I really just wasn’t into just being penetrated, it felt OK, not great though. It is this way sometimes. Also when he’s been drinking, I really don’t like…
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Solo and Shared and Selfishness
Selfishness? When is it selfish? When one takes and only takes? Does satisfaction need to be taken into your own hands? For example. Last night. A finds himself wanting to play, no worries there. We play. And I am giving him a hand job, and he stops playing with me. Makes an excuse for not…
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L Words
The L word. A says, “so I’m gonna say this and it’s probably going to sound lame, cheesy, whatever… [and he pauses] everytime I think that I’m ‘In Love’ with you, a month later I find that it’s changed and it’s more than it was the last month.” I say, “same”. Love. There it is.…
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Self and Other
I still feel myself fighting this attachment thing. Like, I’m nearing handing myself over and I hold off for fear of giving too much? Getting there though. Handing oneself over isn’t giving oneself entirely. I am still a singular being, that is – in control of myself. Anyway – attachment issues aside. I met A’s…
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The way his body screams for it.
Sex while up on blocks is brilliant. Having a boy that doesn’t care also brilliant. The majority of my partners haven’t had an issue with it, but the odd couple have, and any fleeting passers by definitely a no go situation. The past 2 nights, sex has been pretty good, the night before last I…
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Things to say.
Things to say. This word LOVE yeah? Well it’s sitting on the tip of my tongue, a lot, but… I just can’t bring myself to say it out aloud. For shizzle… like what the fuck is wrong with me here? It’s doing my head in a bit. It’s not that I don’t love A, cause…
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Body Clock?
Baby Making. My brain has been attuned to this shit, and it’s on the increase. DO NOT WANT BABIES RIGHT NOW. DO NOT! However, it is on my mind with determination. It seems that everywhere I look I see babies. Movie after movie. Friends. Popping up all over the internets. Seriously, the brain really tries…
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Slutwalk
I don’t know if I can articulate my thoughts on Slutwalk. I don’t necessarily disagree but I don’t entirely agree. A rapist will rape regardless of your clothing. And the word slut isn’t about the clothes you wear. The focus seems to be on this. It’s not about what you wear. You just dug yourself…
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